Wednesday, November 20, 2002
Why is my life completely miserable? I have cramps, I'm losing my precious voice(with a concert tomorrow), there's a girl at school who likes me, but i don't like her, I am wearing pants that i have to constantly pull up, and school is so draining, like nothing I've ever experienced before. Additionally, I've been getting about 7-8 hours of sleep every night for the past week. I'm glad I have my handle. Last Wed. my youth pastor gave me a broken off handle of a ping-pong racket (very randomly) and said "if you need a handle on things, then here" and he thrust it into my hands. I think he's forgotton all about it, but whenever i see it, i am reminded of him (my youth pastor) and church (my beacon of light in the dark world) and most of all, how God (o, bright lighthouse) is really my handle. So it's like I'm holding on to God when i grip my handle (and I've been gripping it hard). Yes, I'm glad I have my handle on things.
