Tuesday, January 14, 2003
I'm wearing blue today. That really has no importance, but i thought I'd tell you all anyway. I went to the library yesterday. Such a thrill occurs when i read new books, when I look at the unexplored pages waiting for me on my chair. And then after i'm done, I feel as content as though I have devoured a great feast, and am full to bursting in my mind.
It's because i read so much that i have glasses.
A strange thing happened last night. Well, not so strange as beautiful and wonderous. Right after dinner, my mind set to thinking of my family, and how lucky I am to have them. i was filled with an overflowing love almost tangibil(sp?) and a deep joy so reassuring. I wrote in my diary of it, and that is my evidence that that time had come. It lasted for about half-an-hour, and what pleasure i got from those 30 minutes! They are now as dear a memory as any in my mind. The feeling of joy and love washed over me in great waves, and this love was in me and surrounding me, and i knew it was of God. And i thought to myself, this must be what heaven is like, only it lasts all the time. i thought then of what it would be like not to have my family as they were, all drenched in love for each other, and for God. The feeling faded away then, but even as i think of it, my heart leaps with joy. I am detemined to remember this experience forever, and to pull it out of my mind when i am mad at my siblings or parents.
It's because i read so much that i have glasses.
A strange thing happened last night. Well, not so strange as beautiful and wonderous. Right after dinner, my mind set to thinking of my family, and how lucky I am to have them. i was filled with an overflowing love almost tangibil(sp?) and a deep joy so reassuring. I wrote in my diary of it, and that is my evidence that that time had come. It lasted for about half-an-hour, and what pleasure i got from those 30 minutes! They are now as dear a memory as any in my mind. The feeling of joy and love washed over me in great waves, and this love was in me and surrounding me, and i knew it was of God. And i thought to myself, this must be what heaven is like, only it lasts all the time. i thought then of what it would be like not to have my family as they were, all drenched in love for each other, and for God. The feeling faded away then, but even as i think of it, my heart leaps with joy. I am detemined to remember this experience forever, and to pull it out of my mind when i am mad at my siblings or parents.
