Monday, October 29, 2007
Birthday
Today has been a quiet, restful day. I just drank some chai tea, and finished reading an beautiful flower of a story by Isak Dinesen. Everyone has been very, very kind to me, giving me smiles, well wishes, hugs and cards.
Unsurprisingly, I've been thinking about the past year. This time last year, I was busy with Urinetown, wondering where I would go to college. God revealed it with such clarity, thank Him! I became better friends with people at Shorewood last year, and it was lovely. I got a job last summer, and spent some good time with friends, and had fun in Whistler and Monterrey. I listened to a lot of good music this year. I even made some of it.
I think I learned more of God. I have an inkling now of how little I know him, and this is both discouraging and heartening. There is so much.
I have learned that there is hope in the story, and how inexpressibly beautiful that is…
Honestly (and I have a hankering to be honest at the start of a new year) I have been a bit lonely this year. Perhaps the challenge this year is to be alone with Him more. I don't believe the loneliness will cease-- but He will be with me, always, no matter what I feel, making things new.
I have decided to take happiness when I can find it this year. And right now, I think I will find it in turning off my computer and playing guitar, and perhaps reading another story. Goodnight.
